Last night, I watched the movie Julie & Julia. I’m not writing a review here, so I’ll just tell you that I liked the movie and get on with what I really want to say.

This movie is about a blogger, who is also a foodie, who is also trying to “find herself;” there was no way that I was going to be able to watch it without being affected by it.

At the very least, the blogging aspect has influenced me to try a little harder to keep up with my blog. I doubt I’ll be a huge success (in terms of blogging) by the end of this year, but I can see that just like me she had days when she almost didn’t want to blog at all. I am going to assume that if you are reading this, then you can relate to that, since you are probably also a blogger.

As far as being a foodie is concerned, there’s no doubt that I love food, and eating (if you’ve ever seen me in person or in photographs the evidence is indisputable). I’m not sure I would ever commit to Mastering the Art of French Cooking in 365 days; and I know I’ll never write a breakthrough, revolutionary cook book; but the fact remains that I love food.

Which leaves us with trying to find oneself. There’s a scene at the begining of the movie when Julie is out to lunch with her suit wearing career girl friends and you can almost see the words “I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE” written across her face in black magic marker. I’m going to assume that the girlfriends in the movie were more of a caricature than an accurate representation of Julie’s actual friends – if only so that my career girl friends do not think that I see them that way. It’s really tough to be the only person in the room who doesn’t have a CAREER, and it’s hard not to feel like a HUGE FAILURE, no matter how happy I am in my job. I can relate to sitting at a table with a bunch of people who are doing what they want to be doing WITH A PURPOSE and not feeling comfortable discussing my job, which is something I do because I have to work to earn money to pay my bills, and I really haven’t got a purpose at all.

I harbour no illusions that someday this will lead to a book deal, or that I will ever become so popular a blogger that I’ll be able to sell ad space and live off the income my blog brings in. I won’t pretend that I have never fantasized about it, but on the whole I am realistic in my expectations of where this is all going. My blog is at once a diary/journal where I can record the various goings on of my life on a day-to-day basis, and a newsletter for keeping my friends and family in the loop of said goings on. I set myself some goals from time to time, but on the whole, I want to keep it light and fun because if it becomes too much like work, I might not keep writing.

Having gotten the disclaimer out of the way, I am inspired by Julie (the Julie in the movie, who may or may not be exactly like the Julie in real life) to blog about something more meaningful (to me, and hopefully to others) than just the random blah blah blah of my day-to-day life. As much as keeping a journal for the sake of journaling alone is a good thing; keeping a journal to log your progress towards achieving a goal is a great thing. I’m pretty sure the average reader would rather live vicariously through me plowing through my unfinished knitting projects (complete with photos) than live vicariously through me taking a couple of loads down to the laundromat.

I know this blog is advertised as being about my journey to motherhood – and I missed the flight AGAIN this cycle (more on that later) – but really it’s also about me, the person making the journey to motherhood.